The only constant in life is change...

How true is this? I think that this would probably be the underlying theme to my life. Even though change is constantly happening, I'm not necessarily good at rolling with it. You would think that 22 going on 23 years, I would have been used to this by now. When things are in that certain, perfect, ideal setting all I can think about is stopping time to sit and soak it in awhile. But I never am able to conjure up enough super human power to stop time, so I'm constantly running at the coat tails of whatever last enjoyable moment has just past to try and get it all back.

I'm working on keeping view of the present and yet to come though. I'm slowly trying to not look back. It's hard for someone who hates being out of control. I'm quite proud of myself actually. This year has been the year of change, brought on by yours truly. The growth that has happened because of this year is like reaching the summit of a mountain and looking down at all the crags and boulders that you had to wrestle around to get to the view you're at now.

Segue>>> I wish there would have been more preparation for real world life. It's been hard after college. You take a lot of things for granite and you aren't really thankful for the little things that make the world of difference when you don't have them anymore. It's so hard to meet people and make friends in the working world. After you graduate its like you've come to this moment of freedom that you've longed for for so long, but then you all of a sudden become aware of the drastic change that has just occurred.

You no longer have the comfort of the university that you called home, the friends that were very much like family and the luxuries of not having to pay bills, wake up at 6 am, or go to bed at 10. I wish people would just stop telling me to go and meet people, or to go out and have fun w/ other working people. It's like kindergarten all over again. You just want to piss your pants at the thought of having to make friends and you just want to continue to hang out with mom and baby sister all day.

It's a hard knock life... :)