I don't like being up in the air

Well a lot has happened since the last time I actually posted. And I guess right now I feel like actually writing about it.

Last Monday Jessica and I found out that our moving in together might have been a bit premature. We started a discussion about wants/needs and found out that ours didn't quite match up for the upcoming year. That conversation turned into us taking some steps back in our relationship. Which is hard. A lot of things are up in the air and are quite hard for the both of us right now.

We both love each other a great deal, its just we both are on different pages about our life. So that almost makes it harder because we still love each other a great deal, and there's really no bitterness or anger towards each other. No one did anything wrong, it just got to a cross roads.

So right now we're trying to figure out some things.

In the process of this happening I think I've been forced to look at my life and realize that there's not a lot to it. Except for the girlfriend and work, there wasn't much to me. So my therapist and I working on me right now, and developing healthy things for me. I'm really wanting to do this in a big way.

I'm going to go to a movie tonight @ SU. Tomorrow I'm not quite sure yet. Wednesday I'm going to a lecture and to therapy. I've got to find some other things to fill up my week. I'm trying to find some things that I'm interested in that aren't going to cost me too much. I was thinking about trying yoga again. I'm also going to be trying to go play volleyball with an austin meetups group on Saturdays. Hopefully, this will be something that I can do. I'm not very good at putting myself out there to meet new people unless I've got someone I know with me to help be my portal.

Here are my tentative goals for myself:

1. Find a sport to be involved in.
2. Find a group to volunteer with that promotes socializing.
3. Find some friends that aren't from SU or thru SU.
4. Find an interest group that I can join.

So thats what I've got so far. It's hard, and I'm trying to remain hopeful about the future. But for now I'm going to take things one step at a time and hopefully this will be okay.

I hope the next post won't be so depressing I'm sorry. :)