Thoughts for July 18th

So I'm realizing that this is the time in life to really screw up. Well maybe not in that crude of terms, but really, right now is the perfect time for mess ups and mishaps.

I used to get so hung up on things, I felt like I had to perform at such a perfect level, and in turn I was constantly letting myself down. I don't really know where that comes from, being the oldest child, being an athlete, growing up in an elitist Christian environment.

It's so hard because there's this unspoken (and for many of us clearly spoken) expectation to be sure of everything. Be sure how you feel, be sure what you're going to do in life, be sure of where you are going, etc. I used to be there, had my 10 year plan. Then it completely changed, I'm not even close to where I thought I was going to be 5 years ago, not even a year ago.

I remember talking to my dad one time about my life, and he shared somethings about his own life with me. He told me that when living your life mistakes will happen and things do change, but if you don't accept that you will never know what it means to live your life. Mistakes and changes teach you more about who you are and what this world is about. If we didn't screw up every once in awhile and things didn't go our way every now and then, our lives wouldn't have any stories to tell.

I just really think that life is about living it.