A great weekend at home

This past weekend I went home to spend some time with my family. My sister was also filming a documentary on marriage, more specifically the social structure around it and the pressure that young college students feel to get married at such an early age. I was really honored that she asked to interview me. I knew when she asked me that it would be hard for me to do, and also thought it might be even harder for her to interview me and hear things that we haven’t really talked about since I decided to break off the engagement.

My family isn’t very used to talking about things in an open and honest way. I mean we do it, but there are some things that we just don’t dig deep. Last summer is one of them. When it actually happened I talked to my parents about it all, but my sisters and I didn’t really have a format or a way to be able to discuss it. So we just didn’t. I was hurt, scared, ashamed, I’m sure they felt similar.

So to be able to say so many things and to really spill my feelings and my experience with my sister there, asking the questions was really powerful and moving. On many occasions I cried, and became overwhelmed with emotion. She asked a few questions about my parents and that’s when I really got emotional. I’ve talked before about the disappointment that I felt I caused my family, and the failure I felt I was not fulfilling their dream for me. I still struggle with that, feeling as if I have failed them.
It wasn’t anything that they put on me or forced me to feel, I put those expectations upon myself.

Being a part of the documentary made me really proud of Emme, she asked really wonderful questions that weren’t too abrasive but they pulled information out of me that was valid and truthful, I wouldn’t have been able to do that if I hadn’t have felt safe. She’s really doing such a wonderful job and I can’t wait to see the film!

After the filming we went to my dad’s new restaurant called Coast. It’s in Plano at the Shops at Legacy. My dad has been out of the restaurant business for about 7 years, but he wasn’t rusty at all. He pulled out all the stops and the tricks. The place is gorgeous, and piece of art to just sit in. And the cuisine is amazing. I think that even if you don’t know much about fine dining, that you would be able to tell that what they are doing with seafood at Coast is awesome! I was really proud of what my dad created, he looked so happy like this was what was meant for him.

Sunday my mom and I hung around town. We went shopping and out to lunch. We had some really good conversation and had a fun time together. I really enjoy her company and was really sad to come back to Georgetown because I wanted to have some more time with her. But Thanksgiving is approaching soon!!!